Burning bridges baby, burning bridges, making wishes.

I wish I was burning this damn bridge.
I have to design a truss to hold as much weight as possible.
And I'm failing miserably.
I suppose I don't actually have to design a brilliant one because my group has already agreed on a design.
But I feel guilty for not actually trying.
But other than all this stuff, university is tolerable.
I have a test next week and exams in three but it should be all right.
I'll survive. Hopefully.

I'm also a lot poorer than I was yesterday.
Why?
Because I bought me a netbook.
Cost me my scholarship money but I reckon its worth it.
I'm sick of borrowing other peoples laptops for stuff like checking emails.
And checking email isn't worth going to the computer labs for.

I've been really tired lately.
And still unusually happy.
For me anyway.
All in all it had been a good week.

-AJJ

Confusion

I wish I was a guy?
Maybe?
I sure as hell hate being a girl.
Maybe it's just a phase.
I hate the assumptions that come with being a girl.
PMSing? Pink? And whats with all the freaking shoes?!
I guess there's the same thing for guys.
But presumably they're things that I'd rather be.

I'm thinking of starting a double degree next year.
Higher work load, but two degrees at the end.
That'd always be an advantage for getting a job in the long run.
Should I really be thinking about the long term right now?
Or should I be thinking of how to get through this year?

-AJJ

Football and tests

It's not a song lyric, but it'll do.

I had a test last night. It went badly. I blanked. I think I passed though.
But on a slightly happier note I finished my assignments.
And I don't have another test for two weeks.

I played my last football game in September last year.
Now I miss not playing this season.
I miss training in the rain, the freezing cold, and most of all just running around keeping my mind off other things.
I think I'll use this year to get my fitness and skill up again so I get in a good team next year.
Although, it is quite fun to play against terrible teams because I can just walk them and I get shooting practise.
Or I could trial for the university team. That could work.

I'm looking forward to the World Cup.
ENGLAND.

-AJ