UAOY

I have nowhere to go.
I have nothing to feel.
I should have nothing to stress over.
And yet, I can't help thinking that there is something that I have forgotten.

Reid, you are amazing

So even though I want England to win the world cup, I still don't want New Zealand to fail epically because that is where I'm from.
When Slovakia scored that first goal last night I thought it was all over, expecially then Smeltz missed that free header in the eighty-somethingth minute.
But then Reid, the guy who did some amazing defending in the game as well, score in the third freaking minute of injury time.

So that was the first point New Zealand ever scored in the world cup, not including age group sides and womens.
And what makes the whole thing even better, is that so far, New Zealand have done better then those Australians :)

That game made my day/night. Morning? It was about 0115ish I think.
Hopefully I can watch the Spain game later because I have my last exam tomorrow.

Footyfootyfootyfooty. ENGLAND! ENGLAND!

Well, that's odd.
I just read the stuff I wrote about two weeks ago and I don't remember writing it at all.
So, suffice it to say, I am confused as to what it is about.

But on a slightly less confusing note, two down, two to go.
Done maths and biochem, now I've just got to do mechanics and design.
I should really be studying for mechanics right now too because my exam is on Tuesday morning :s
Yuss! Then I'm free for four weeks or so.

And I'm watching the World Cup.
Well, watching all the exciting games when I don't have exams, and recording the rest for later.

[footballrant]
England drew with the USA!?
Sheesh put Hart in goal and donn't start Heskey.
I know Green made a mistake that any keeper could make and Heskey set up Gerrard's goal, but still, you'd think that Capello would want to start his best team.
And I reckon the best England first eleven includes either James or Hart in goal.
James has the experience, after all he is the oldest player in the whole tournament, while Hart brilliant for a player you has next to no international experience.
And another thing, why would he give the No. One shirt to James but not use him in, debateably, their hardest match.
As for Heskey, I think that Defoe or Crouch would have been a better pick to start.
Simple as that.
[/footballrant]

Right now that I've gotten over that.
I've decided that I need to do something with myself.
I don't know what yet.
But I will eventually figure it out.
And I'll probably write it on here because I dont' talk to my friends as much as I used to.

-AJJ? or Sam, depends who I'm pretending to be a suppose :)

Tests, tests, and more tests. Oh and an exam somewhere too.

I had my first university exam today.
That was daunting.
But I went well I think even though I hardly studied.
So now I'm 25% through my exams and should be studying for my next one but I just can't be bothered.
But a week from now I'll have a four week break in which to watch the World Cup.

I want England to win.
I hope England will win.
But in the end I think Spain will win.

So really, I don't know why I'm writing this.
Not this post in particular.
But this whole blog.
It's not like anyone else reads it.
I wouldn't tell my friends about it.
After all it largely concerns my problems with them and life.
They don't need to hear about, or rather, read about all of that.
Because, really, its all quite trivial.

The blog which shall be rather ambiguously called "people"

I don't understand why people care so much about what they look like.
Surely, nobody else would care about what you look like.
If they're your friend, they're you friend for who you are and not what you wear.
Unless of course you are friends with unbelieveably fake and shallow people.
But that is beside the point.
And if someone does mock you for what you look like, then surely they aren't your friend.
This confuses me greatly.
And I shall write again once I think about it some more.

All we are to you is lost causes

I'm sick of being the one that can have no feelings.
I'm sick of being the one who has to hold everything in.
It what everyone expects of me.
It what everyone is used to.

I'm sick of never being allowed to be right.
I'm sick of nobody ever taking my side, simply because I'm me.
Which begs the question, why can't I just not be me?

The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had

I wish I couldn't feel.
Then nothing would be a problem.
I wouldn't worry about whether or not I've hurt someone.
I wouldn't lie awake at night, just filled with regret.
I would be able to live my life without any distractions.

My friends seem to be moving on without me.
I don't like it.
Not in the slightest.
I have to leave them to do what they want though.
After all I can't change what they do just because I want to talk to them.
I don't need to talk to anyone after.
I refuse to tell people anything.
It's not like they'd care anyway.
So I've decided.
Fuck it.